Whats wrong with me?

Whats wrong with me?
All I do is lie in this corner and get deceived
Dont you understand that lifes hard enough?
Without you to try touch me?
My body feels weak as you get closer and closer
Leave me alone I cant take this no more
Ive yelled and screamed but nothing seems to change
You just like that the schedules getting rearranged
Stop treating me harshly this can only go so far
My hearts broken you already left the scars
Cant you see that I want to be me?
Without control taking over what I call free
You lie and no one seems to hear
Me in the background shouting towards their ears
Abandonment wasnt only the past issues
You make me so mad. Hand me a tissue
These tears keep falling and I dont know what to do
Please help me god, or Ill help you
Knives are close, thats all I have to do
Is end this suffering..
No more mental challenges that keep on destroying me
I have one life to live stop getting closer
I need my mom not you being a poser
Lifes been so sad. Why do treat me this way? dad?
Whats wrong with me?