My suicide

If I pulled the trigger,
Would you care?
Would you miss that
I'm not there?
Would you grieve
And would you cry?
Would you wonder,
And ask me why?
Or would you be fine,
Not affected.
My missing presence
Not detected?
I picture the future
With me removed
And then I realize
You'd be unmoved.
So here's to you
Fantasies denied
As I embrace
My suicide
And I know that
You don't care
And you don't notice
Me not there