Why do I have to endure this pain?

Pain is what I feel.
The only thing that's real to me.
Everything else is nothing.
I cry myself to sleep every night.
I haven't eaten in days.
When will this terrible pain end?
Maybe I'll end it myself.
Please
Please someone help me.
Save me from myself.
I can't live through this pain any longer.
I'm about to crack.
Why me?
I didn't do anything to deserve this.
I wish I could feel something other than pain.
I Don't want to feel pain.
I want to be cared for.
I want to be loved.

I just want to be happy. . .