When i was 5 he put nail on me and painted them
i thanked him by leaving to show my mom with out saying a word
when i was 8 he bought me a barbie doll for christmas
i thanked him by running to my room to play
when i was 10 he made me laugh
i thanked him by getting annoyed 2 mins after
when i was 13 he came over in his car
i thanked him by talking back even tho he was drunk and didnt know what he was saying
when i was 16 ; he was worried that ill literally kill my sister in law with a bat and tried to calm me down
i thanked him by yelling at him and telling him to leave me alone
when i last saw him he was being kind to my best friend
i thanked him by being completly mean because he was drunk
im 17 now ... and i regret everything. we had wonderful moments . the good and also the bad . the last time i saw him i was completly mean to him while he was completly nice and welcoming to my best friend . yes he was drunk ; the thought of him being gone never crossed my mind. i feel extremely guilty and lost , not because i i lead him to his death but beacuse i was mean to him ... i never told him how much he ment to me or said i love you . i never never told him how i felt about him being drunk all the time or helped him; i never showed him that i actually cared .
so pls ... tell people you care about how much they mean to you and mend whatever beef you have with them . cuz you never know when they'll be gone ;
