Letting go

I cant help but wait maybe this is fate
lets let the past be the past i always
knew this wouldn't last but still i try
but sometimes i ask myself why...u
never show yhu care even wen im there
trying to show yhu my emotions
with hugs and kisses asking yhu 2be
my mistress but yhu never answer
Im dying slowly i think i got
cancer my heart turns black
im a nigga with out a smile
instead i got a frown
no time 2joke around i aint
a clown watcha you got 2say
now!
no! dont cry i refuse 2look
in your eye and fake a smile
with out yhu im sad my lie
couldn't go that bad