Laugh as I fall

You used to console my heart
Now you've broken it
You dried my tears
Now you awaken them

You held me up
You laugh as I fall
I tried before
I won't care at all

You pushed me away
I held on tighter
Holding onto nothing
My future no brighter

I saw you today
Holding her in your arms
But I looked away
I once was same, without harm

Now pain is all I endure
Ailing from an illness
Which only you can cure
Save me? I'm pleading

This moment is fleeting
As I fall into the past
Remembering you let me go
It's all that I can grasp

My last shred of sanity
Turns to my demise
As you turn to look me
Right in the eyes

Locked on something
Which no one else can see.
I wonder what he saw,
When he was looking at me.

But your eyes are
Gone now, never to return again
It's hard to believe
you were somehow my best friend.

You told me you loved me
What am I now?
Am I not the same person?
Different somehow?

But have I changed all that much?
You tell me,
I'm not the same person,
Held down by misery

At first I was determined,
Not to fall in love
But you taught me
To know the above.

I leaned in closer
To taste your lips
Each time like the first
Forever in the abyss.

Each day I see the same
You in love with her
The way you pretended to be
With another.

I wish you could feel
Somehow know
The pain is there
I will never show.