I try and try
but all I do is cry
i never get anything right
And I release that pain at night
I fight and fight with all my might
my heart is getting cold
all this pain is becoming old
i hit and kick
at the wall of bricks
yet the anger and pain is still not out
all i wanna do is shout
i cuss and fuss
til i'm gasping for air and my lungs about to bust
Still my anger is there
In this case its not very rare
people think im mean
they think my life is peachy keen
but deep down
theres this very soft sound
can you hear it?
even a little bit?
my heart and soul is weeping
and the tears are deepening
but you ask why?
why do i feel the need to cry?
i'll tell you why.
i want my heart to sob
everytime my love is robbed
once my heart and lungs are full of the salty tears
it feels i can replace all the years of hurt and anger
maybe bring my dad back
or possibly my grandparents
give my mom happiness
neve have met David
and the whole nine yards
my life has been hard
and nobody sees my pain
all this is becoming the same
and i feel like im going insane
