It should have been me

We just started talking
we only just met
so why oh why did i fall so hard when we were only meant to be friends
but then we kissed
i was so happy i couldn't stop smiling
everyone wondered why
i didn't lie
and then i heard you say it meant nothing
I'm such an idiot i feel so dumb
but i can't stop thinking of you
i love you i hate you
i can't stop thinking of you
so I'm going to go wild and meet a new guy
I'll lose my innocence because I'm sick of being treated like a kid
I'll make you see it should have been me