Don't think. don't breathe.

The drugs take hold slowly.
carefully calculated medication.
watch the sun fall again.
another day. another life...
i wish i had.

to embrace.
to conquer.
to fail.
it's all the same.

something reminiscent.
a parabole from my youth.
long forgotten. forlorn.
these thoughts.
these figures.
nothing but shadows.
something.
gone.

watching the clock more closely now.
blink.awaken.3hours.
where was i.
semblance of sanity.
carefully composed.
cold stare.
vacant vessel.
thinking about blood.

why quit?
aggregate your loses.
favorable hobby.
throw a stone.
count the fallen.
games for a Destroyer.

passive selections rule.
monotonous.repetitious.simplysame.
pawning ambition.
hoarding strife.

top of the world!
looking down on all.
gentle breeze turns to rush.
i think for the last time.
smile.