Some days i feel like I'm going insane,
like things just wont go right,
its like if i turn my back for one second,
it all goes wrong,
or if there are two things i want,
i have to choose between them,
like the person i love,
and what i've been working toward for years,
why isn't there a way for me to have them both?
why does it feel like the end of something?
when everything else is just beginning,
why does it hurt so much to think of letting go?
when i want to hold on so tight,
even if it means giving up everything,
but at the same time not wanting to give it up,
why does it feel like i have to choose?
why cant have both?
why do i feel like i cant ask for him to love me and for my future?
all i know is I'm hurting,
and its like there is no one to talk to about it,
its like they are all gone,
and I'm scared of saying anything,
just in case i screw everything up,
why cant it be easy?
