Hese dreams as pleasant and blissful as they were would also be his ultimate undoing , these dreams would slowly start to tear him apart for he knew deep inside that that is all they would remain , and no matter how hard he fought to stop these dreams and thoughts of her it was no use for she was in his heart and there was no way to get rid of her now. He often remembered what his mother once told him "We can not control who it is we fall in love with , we can only do one of two things fight for it , suffer and hope the outcome was worth it , which nine times out of ten it is , or ignore it and suffer in silence . He choose to suffer , not because he was afraid to tell her that he loved , but because he was afraid that she would no longer see him in the same way and no longer want anything to do with him , and if it meant he had to silently suffer just so she would stay in his life then that is what he would do , and because of this he would stay up till the early hours in the morning often thinking of her to the point where he would shed a tear because his heart was aching so much , his yearning for her would not end either for his heart was always telling him that she was his one and only and he needed to do something about it.
He often thought of what the outcome would be if he did tell her , he would see her beauty in his mind from her perfect soul filled eyes , to her tender luscious lips , her long beautiful brown hair that smelled of a summers breeze , her perfectly shaped body that looked she had fallen from the heavens them selves , and then there was her face , with the most perfect nose you had ever seen and a beauty mark just above her upper lip on the right. All these details would play in his head and as he imagined telling her the scene would come in to play as they stood there over looking a beach atop a cliff face while sun was setting slowing and seagulls where flying towards it , he would see all this and take her hand and tell her these words
