Why(lesbian)

Why should I hide?
Why should I keep my feelings inside?
I'm sick of feeling empty and hollow
The way you speak of others
makes me swallow.
To hide the way I feel
It hurts
It kills
Ill try everything
but nothing fills
The emptiness that lurks inside
Its so strong now
It makes me cry
I'm afraid to ever let you know
ill never give myself a chance to show
Show you how you changed me
How you made me a little bit better
All the good and bad times
We went through together.
If I could do anything for you
I would
And there would be no questions
And Id ask for no help
I would just go out there
And do it myself.
I want to go up to you
And whisper in your ear
I LOVE YOU
But I know you will never hear.
I don't want to say
And then regret
But it hurt inside
And I just cant forget.
I want you to feel it
I want you to reply
But instead Ill go on
Just living this lie.
Every three seconds
Your running through my brain
I wish you would just get out
Your driving me insane
I need a distraction
Peace
Silence
any thing that will
Get me by this
Then for that time
I will be free
from this mask
I hide over me.
I wish it would change
And I could live normal
Then I wouldn't have to feel
So God Dam horrible.
I hate it
and I want it to go
I hate the feeling
of Being so low.
I want you to know
You have my heart
So be careful
When you want to start
Start on s future
With others but me
When I go on
Ill be drowning in a sea.
I don't want your body
Only your mind
Ill try to forget about it
But it may take some time.
When I hate you I love you
When I love you I hate you
Theres something inside me
That doesn't want to make you
Make you feel
The way I do
The way I feel
When I'm with you.
I am so scared
But I want to be free
What is this power
You have over me.
You'll push me away
I know this is true
So ill keep doing
Everything I normally do
And ill prey for that day
that you will be mine
And I don't care if it kills me
Or takes a lifetime.

when i ws 16 under cherry but its mine :)