And I am Broken Because...

I'm stuck inside this place
and I don't want to come out.
I am broken and torn
and my heart is full of doubt.

My eyes are filled with tears
and my voice echoes sobs.
I try hard to keep the pain covered
so I rattle all the knobs.

Inside my brain I'm trying hard,
the gears are moving fast.
Sometimes I think it wasn't meant to be,
we weren't suppose to last.

But I love this boy dearly
and I don't want to let him go.
But he plays a sad movie
and I'm in the front row.

Its a movie about our past,
a movie about me.
A movie when I wasn't good,
a movie of what I use to be.

I wasn't a real good girlfriend,
I was a terrible girl.
But I thought I needed attention
from the entire world.

I fell for so many tricks
and did you really wrong.
But hopefully you'll read this poem
and figure out why I'm gone.

I changed for you
and no one else you see.
I thought that we could work things out,
you were my one and only.

But not that I've changed,
you have changed too.
You aren't the boy I fell in love with,
you aren't the boy I knew.

You were nice and sweet,
caring and kind.
What did I do to you
to make you change your mind?

How far have I gone
to make you angry at me?
How am I suppose to fix it,
if you won't let me see?

I know your feeling hurt
and that you hide.
But I need to see
the pain inside of you.

Sometimes I feel useless
and that I anchor you down.
I thought I made you happy
but instead I pulled you to the ground.

I buried you in a tomb
and your mine forever babe.
But I'm still broken
and I won't let you be saved.

I'm broken because of you
and what I had to do.
I changed because I loved you,
so why did you have to change too?