CONFUSION!!
This Confusion is sucking the Life out of me,
the hurts and the pains have made my Heart weak,
I need to get away from this Evil Infested Place I am in,
Find a place of Happiness,Love, and Peace,
yet I will never be the same, maybe someone even better.
This Life I have led has been so sad and weary but I am proud of this fact.
My family I have always put first above all else.
Only regret is not keeping us all in church.
Rooted in the word and faith.
We would not have suffered so much for our sins if God was put ABOVE All.
Now I sit here plain out Exhausted and broke down.
Confusion takes control of my mind.
Too numb to pray or to call out.
Never believing things would get so out of control.
Never believing Love could turn into such Hate.
That Hurting me would become his Passion.
Confusion is my friend.
Tossed aside my your self righteous Pride,
you became such a hater of me
I ask you Why?
You can never be Honest and tell me.
Your not a man your weak and selfish and you hurt everyone in your path.
Such negative forces have taken over us,
my Love can not reach you no more,
once I am gone that door will be closed forever,
You will become the Lonely, sad, deserted one.
I have no Hope or Desire to Live now,
but I promise you I will.
Unlike you I have a inner Grace,
a inner Beauty even you can not take away,
You can never ruin Gods love for me
our children's or our Grandson's.
They Love and accept me for ME just as I am.
Your Hate someone could feed upon for many years,
your best friend now can be all the resentment you hold over my head,
Take the hate and grudge you have of me and see how far it will get you,
Even though I will heal in time my mind will be in total Confusion of Why you took your love away from me,
Showed me so much hate and hurt me so bad,
when all I gave you is Honesty...truth, faithfulness, and true Love.
I have always accepted you for who you are and stood by you for so many years,
to be tossed aside like yesterdays trash,
Good bye for ever...
I am gonna go the Distance into my:
CONFUSION!!
