Mia

Water Turned on,
As I turned to lock the door
I slowly bring my body,
down onto the floor
I know the routine well,
It's always the same
First comes relief,
Followed by overwhelming shame
When it's done,
I wash my hands and face
Then stare in the mirror,
And wonder how I've come to this place
Never thought this would be me,
with my fingers down my throat,
Greedily shoving food in my mouth,
As my stomach begins to bloat
The vicious binge and purge cycle continues,
Mia has me trapped
In order to survive,
I feel I have no choice but to try and adapt
Mia is a monster,
With her claws wrapped around me tight
But Mia is also cunning,
Constantly telling me it will be alright
"Just keep going",
She sweetly whispers in my ear
"You will be thin in no time",
Will I finally conquer my biggest fear?
Soon enough I see that Mia is a liar,
Through all that pain I have lost no weight
Sitting there on the bathroom floor,
I begin to fill with hate
Then from somewhere i find some strength,
I lift my aching body up with all my might
I will not let Mia win,
And right there i decide to fight
After putting Mia behind me,
Her reign finally at an end
I am comforted to see Ana,
My old dear, dear friend
I've missed you.