People thinking i am happy but not

People always think i am happy
well i am not all that happy
for real i am sad some of the times
sad because my brother hates me
sad that i am not smart
sad that people make fun of me
sad when i ask my friends if i am annoying
they say no and lie
i know they lie because i could see it
sad that i am going to end up failing the ACT
sad that i am never going to go to college
so when people asks why am i happy i am not really happy i mean i might say i am good but that's only sometimes
sometimes i think to myself that i don't want to live