My Universe is Inside Me Now

I can't sleep any more
Every memory causes my body to physically jolt
Like a nervous twitch
But I'm not nervous, I'm sad

Reliving every moment over and over again in the exploited tissues of my mind
Poisoning every strand of my psyche like a vicious plague trying to wipe out a race of undeserving heart beats.
Those poignant memories are not welcome to return in some districts of my mind
Rejected and cast out the same way in which they were once formed

I want to reach in and rip these demons out of my head
But my skull encases them like the thick stone walls of a medieval torture chamber

I can definitely feel them
But would I be able to touch them anyway?
To wrench them from their clawing grip and sharp nails burrowing into my constant vision

I look out across the mountains but I can't see the snow
Or the wind rustling the leaves on the trees
Or the rivers twinkling as it flows free of incarceration, certain of its direction
I can't see any of that anymore, the drape of sorrow in front of my eyes let's no light in

My universe is inside me now