I open my eyes
I see nothing
No one
I am alone
I roll over and turn on a light
Beside me
A gun
Many times I've tried
tried to end it all
Tried to make the wishes of many come true
Tried to take the easy way out
But it hasn't happened
Not yet
I try again
But I can't
It is like someone is stopping me
Pulling the gun from my head
But no one is around
I am alone
I don't understand why I can't
No one cares
No one really loves me
There isn't a single person
Not even my family
Who want me here
Or will miss me
Why can't I do it?
I can't figure it out
There must be someone
Someone out there
Someone who needs me
I turn out the light
And cry myself to sleep
I am finally needed.
