To mum

The hardest thing I did in life
Was to leave without goodbye
So I'll take this opportunity
To say sorry that I died

You nurtured me from my birth 
And loved me like no other
And if I could choose over again
I'd always choose you as my mother

There were lots of things I said and did
That caused you heartache and pain
I cant say sorry hard enough
Or take it back again

There were lots of things I didn't say
That I should've, like how I felt
You were always looking out for me
No matter what cards life dealt

Enjoy your time this Christmas
Without me by your side
I know it wont be easy
But I'll be your spirit guide