My Suicide letter

Dear family and friends, and Christopher..
I never ment to hurt anyone and i dont have any excuse that can justify what i have done. I just cant take this anymore and im sorry for everything. I didnt ment to break my promise to you Christopher, please dont follow me into the nothing no matter how much it hurts to stay alive. To the people who has gotten this letter, dont ever blame yourselfs, its not your fault. Please dont cry for me, i dont want your tears. I know that some of you didnt see this coming at all, and for those of you i'll try to explain what have been on my mind for the past 4 years.

I've been hiding these things for so long,
but the world is just too wrong.

Nothing left inside of me,
why cant I make others see?

As the darkness comes and i lay in my bed,
So many thoughts goes through my head.

I dont know how to cope with my hate and pain,
an empty shell is all that remains.

I was at the bottom, i felt so alone,
And all my deepest secrects were still unknown.

My soul was so dark and shattered,
There was nothing left that really mattered.

Then i met this messed up guy,
And i felt like i could just sit down and cry

I could tell him about the way that i felt,
And my heart, he did melt.

I started to feel in a different way,
And i loved him more and more each day.

But now we'll move on to the less good part,
I'll tell you about the end of the start.

Even though theres also light,
The darkness always continous to fight.

I want to end it every night,
But i wont let them know that they were right.

I cut my skin and my tears falls down,
In my own blood I just want to drown.

The pain is what keeps me alive,
But at my last stop i soon will arrive.

I already have too many scars on my wrists,
But i find it so hard to resist.

I feel as im falling forever in the dark,
It comes closer and closer to my heart.

Soon theres nothing left inside,
Too many tears i have already cried.

Im not so sure how to describe my mind,
Its hard to make people see when they're already blind.

The dark thoughts of dead and blood is everywhere,
All day long is like a never-ending nightmare.

It's like the angels in disguise
They try to tell me the truth when i let out my cries

These slimy threads of darkness, that covers up my mind,
Blows hate into my head and tell me they are kind.

But im not sure i wanna make it through anymore,
I am just too tired, dark and sore.

Let my breath and light leave me soon,
As i look up at the new borned moon.

A new begginning is all i need,
The darkness on my life did feed.

So this is the story of my sad little life,
That soon will end up with a bloody knife.

Im sorry, please forgive me.. Goodbye

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