Forgiving you

Anger dies down, and flames turn to ash
Yet nothing we do, will undo our clash

what's said has been done
and for the most part we're through
but it comes back to haunt me,
the betrayal of you

i want to forgive,
for my heart holds you dear
but nothing can revert all the blood that you smeared

your apologies mean nothing
your sadness is sweet
and i feel in my heart
i will turn a new leaf

but i need time to breathe
need this distance from you
and honestly, forgiving
doesn't mean that i'm wooed

it just means that i've grown
through the pain that you've caused
and had time to get over everything i had lost

to accept it, to leave it
but not quite understand
just to realize that sometimes
you get played by a hand

oh dearest, i know,
that there will come a time
when pardon is yours
and peace of mind is mine

but until then, don't worry,
don't seek me, don't speak
what you did to my soul
wounded me and hurt me deep