Panic Attacked

I wanted to speak of my panic
Maybe to it
Tell my heart not to explode
My stomach not to devour itself
Or jump out of my mouth

I didn't want to vomit my fear all over you
To coat you in my past
My throat burns
But I swallow it down
Push it back where it belongs

I can touch you
Hold you
Look, listen, lust you
But I love you
That's the scariest part

It's all becoming so real
There is nowhere left to hide
Walls will fall
They must or we will fail
Failure does not feel like an option