I miss you grandad pop

I miss you grandad

you use to always smile whenever i was near, you use to laugh at all my jokes, you use to call me your little dreamer but now i dont even hear that name.

grandad why did you leave me all alone, you were the only one who knew about my depression nobody else knew and now that you'r gone im all alone again.

i feel like everybody wants me dead they proberly do i mean look at nan, everytime i look her in the eyes its like she is saying why arent you dead yet, you little b***h.
she only cares about my big brother lewis, not me, not steven but lewis.

i dont get it, i try so hard at school and get really good grades, my room is always clean, i do everything i can to make her love me but she doesnt do anything but tell me how much of a let down i am and you dont even know how much its kills knowing that my nan hates me.