Letters before I die

Dear Mother,
I'm sorry I just couldn't take it
I took the whole bottle and I'm not gonne make it
I was so depressed and you didn't see
Or it was because you put to much faith in me
I remeber crying myself to sleep each night
That sad day the cheerleaders hit me, it ain't right
Or the time the jocks painted LOSER on my locker
Or the time the boy I liked said that I was a stocker
I've been bullied for years
Maybe since Dad died
And I showed them my fears
Because in the girl's bathroom I cried
And like a bunch of leeches
They smelt my blood
The teachers never heard my screeches
Or at least those were the lies that they told
God forgive me for I have sinned
As I lie here on my bed I fell my soul thin
Mother I know you owe me nothing
But can you give my bullies something
On the back of this paper there is a letter
It's not of hate but of hope to make things better
It's to tell them I forgive them
And that I no longer cry
Not even about the pointing and laughing in gym
Just try
To think of others before you speak
And hopefully no one else will reach this breaking peak
Mother and one last thing I'm going to a happy place
Because this burning hell I kjust can't take
And lastly I writing in my finale state
And so you know that this isn't fake
On the form at Anthony's please put"Do not Resuscitate"

Love your daughter,
PS: Don't be mad- I promise- I won't be that bad