My Secret

Do you see the smile on my face that beams?
I put it on to hide my dreams

I can't stand it when people judge me
By the "innocent" girl they see

They think I'm an angel well they're wrong
They don't know that all my nights are long

They don't know my hurts and they don't know my pain
They don't know my secrets or that I'm ready to go insane

My life is filled with so much hurt
So it doesn't matter if he was a flirt

I'm so sick and tired of being played
Cause now the edges of my heart are frayed

Just want it all to end
And death is right around the bend

Ii just want someone to be
The guy who actually likes me for me

Who will not care about my past
A relationship that will actually last

I have a certain guy in mind
Who to me is a real find

He's funny and smart
And has a really big heart

He can make me smile when I want to cry
And make me forget that I want to die

He doesn't like to see me sad
So I hope that he will not be mad

If he ever finds out about how I feel
And it's not just physical pain that's real

I wish that we could like each other
But he may have already fallen for another...