FASTER & STRONGER NOW

Those thoughts. Those feelings. The end.

They came on intense at first. Felt like something I could shake. Maybe ignore.

I freeze. I stare. Into something or nothing.

I grin. I shake my head. I frown. I smile.

All I see is my end.

As frightening as it is. As overwhelming as it is.

FASTER & STRONGER NOW

They are powerful.

Waves of horrifying images that I have never seen.

Deaf and mute.

The fear penetrates me hard.

Hard on my body. Melting my mind.

FASTER & STRONGER NOW

It hurts so much. I want more. The fear turns to pleasure.

My end is soon. Preparing me. Preparing my body & my mind.

Back away from me. Run away from me. Forget you ever met me.

Pain is pleasure. Fear is a rush. It is sexual.

I am going to be free.

Free from something I can not describe

I am still here physically. Mentally I am drifting away.

You are not permitted to exit me.