I haven't written in a few years....

I am lost and alone,
Scared to take this one last breath.
Forgotten in pain,
The depth of the last remain.
Calling and screaming your name,
Where are you,
Why are you nowhere to be found.
I wanted to be full,
I wanted to be hole,
You put me back together to watch me unfold.
Desperately sinking,
Closer to hell,
I have already known i wasn't worth keeping,
I was hoping you couldn't tell.
Your right next to me,
But I feel as if I was alone.
I try to be seen,
But I'm left in the unknown.
Trapped in my mind,
Just to be given one sign.
Do what you want with me,
Because no longer do I breathe,
No longer to I bleed,
Because I feel as if I don't exist,
In this cold and hated world.
I'm weak and I'm broken,
But I haven't spoken
of this pain inside,
Because this heart of mine just died.