Another dream

In the deep black brown eyes,
where the true of her love lies.
She could see,
tears forming like sea.
The pain,
she couldn't tell why.
She begged,
to let her comfort me.
Tension,
knowing I couldn't let her leave again.
Pension,
dreams that have always cause confusion.
Deep within her sunset eyes,
I could see the flames of
love burning in her.
She wanted me,
I wanted her.

The source of joy,
happiness and
peace that no longer exists.
She calls,
my heart wana get to her.
My body is weak,
I am about to give in...
Just before,
before enough to lose myself to the warmth of her loving and caring hands.
I move,
want to be with her again.
She seemed to be in peace,
but my appearance brought her desires back to life.
I watch as she struggle, to reach unto me.
Just before I could hold her,
I hear you calling.
The tone is weakening,
am about to ignore,
you don't know
because you cn't let go.
You are fading,
my heart is fading too.
I am now sandwiched by two sources of love,
things that I can never let go.

Just when am about to hold her,
the beautiful image breaks,breaks into millions of pieces.
She is gone,
gone forever.
I hear her crying,
I decieved her.
It wasn't my wish
to let go her spirit,
the love had exchange chances.
I chose to be with you,
that is what makes her cry,
everytime I meet her in my dreams.
I come back to my senses,
your voice echoes,
I run to your rescue.
You aren't there
I lost you.
My world has shattered,
I see no need to live.
I choose to die,
but for which love?
Yours?
No.
Hers?
No.
I draw my knife,
and loosen the veins of my wrist.
The world starts to spin,
am down on the ground.
am dying,
dying not for love
dying for the peace of mind.