What do i do..!!

I'm losing grip of whats wrong and right.
I've buried my secrets and crewed them up tight.
can they tell that i feel like i need to died tonight...they say I'm messed up if they only know why...!!
I've tried to tell them once or twice..but they took his side and told me to do what was right.
I'm falling into darkness...screaming..and crying.
My feeling of belong is minimized by my fright..why don't they care...do they think I'm lying can they see how much they are tormenting..me..inside
I'm Hurt and alone...he's won...I'm losing control.
My heart is heavy with the things i hear as they whisper walking by my ear...i fear that my faith is sealed death is surely near...Please don't let me slip i can't stand to quit....but my heart ain't in it.