I lay here on my bed
In a daze
afraid of the truth.
No one will ever love me.
My family loves a girl
I pretend to be.
Friends don't know the real me.
If they did, no longer would I have friends.
Boys look at me and gag.
I may have a good body
but blemishes keep them away.
I laying here crying.
Finally understanding.
No one loves me.
I'm sinking
in the lake of despair.
Am I that ugly?
That horrible?
What have I ever done?
Can't breath.
Can't think.
In a world so lonely
so cold
Were am I?
Who am I?
I don't even care anymore.
Pretending to be someone else to please everybody else
I have lost me.
No one loves me.
There is no longer something to love.
I have faded into nothingness
into people that don't exist.
Help me
