Stairway to heaven

I suppose it comes hidden between conversations and smiles.
invisible..like trying to find true love.
and it comes to no suprise,but perhaps to you trying to forget,
as you find you can never get too far away, before truth finds you again.
because what you are trying to escape is death snatching away a fragile soul ready to depart ,
as i scream in vain he takes along my heart.
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and the tears that flood my eyes are seen as holes down broken streets that are filled with rain.
and theirs a knot in my throat thats tangled in pain..
and i say not a word hoping to die along with you..
but as i open my eyes every morning, i still remain trapped in this whole.
their was never even a warning...
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their are no letters to put together any words,and no��� voice for me��� to even speak;
what my hearts screams to me.
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and in stretched out hands i tried to hold on and trap slipping time.. that fell like cluthing sand between bloodied hands; Death, is not something i will ever understand..
because theirs simply no prayer to stop an aging heart and soul from saying goob bye.
time falls as if clutching sand in rage.
as im left with the smallest fragment to make me understand its all gone..
and their was never any true escape;
death has shown me..time ticks and ticks away.
and weather your ready or not, it doesnt matter anyway.
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their are days my heart remembers fun times;
so vivid and profound a tear falls from my eye..
and again i pray for death to say to me its time,
but not a word echoes from the sky.
��� every morning, without you is a crippling day;
and every face that looks like you..gives me hope that dies in vain. when i realize its not you....

so know i pray for you to find the stairway to heaven,
where youll look down to watch over me,
and watch me mourn and RESENT the ''god'' that took you away.