On the edge

I cant stand here anymore
i know my strength
but its starting to fade
i have used to for so long
i need to recharge
but life doesnt seem to want to
let me be happy for just a month
or even a week
i just need to jump
to feel the darkness
and take one last breathe
why should i live a lie
lifes just a joke
i wish i could find reasons to live
but when i do i realize
almost all are gone
i am trully alone
maybe this time
ill go numb and go all the way