I'll Try to Fly

Mama why can't you see I really need you?
I'm trying to get done with all the things I need to get through.
I'm trying to change for the better,
But when it comes to me telling you, it doesn't matter.
You think I'm still doing drugs and cutting, but I have changed because I thought I was something.
And in return you tell me I deserve nothing.

Last night I called you,"Mama,"
You said,"Only my daughter calls me that. Your not my daughter."
And with my knuckles all bruised and my cheeks all wet,
I'll sit down in bed and try to lay my head,
Wondering why I'm not her daughter,
I wipe my tears and remember I fought her.

Baby why can't you just be here,
I need you here to wipe away all my tears.

And in between the walls I don't know if you know I hear,
But Mom I hear you laughing at all my mistakes that I've made these past few years.
I'm trying to change for the better,
But again it seems like it doesn't matter.
But I'll look up at the sky every morning because when I looked into the mirror I spoke to myself and said that "I am something."

I'll try,
To fly,
But in the end I will die, but it's up to me if I'll be happy, but soon enough I will see.

<just letting out all my emotions that was filling me up inside the other night.>