Feel empty

I can't help but to feel empty
i need a new life or something to make me feel happy
im bout to be twenty
i look at my past history
man i use to be so angry
it hunts me deep inside
the shit ive done and the things i did makes me wanna breakdown
because now im lonely no one is around
i can't blame them for not sticking around
it seems to me im leaving early northbound
i apologize for every wrong
thanks mom for never giving up you stayed strong
pops I love you even though you cause harm
both of y'all never bullshit me kept me in y'all's arms
i know y'all don't like the fact i breath trees
but try to understand sometimes i just need to escape from reality
i just want to forget everything
i need to find peace with in myself; harmony.