Loss

Please do not ask if I am better now -
Know that I am not.
Please do not simply ask, "How are you?"
I am grieving. My child is dead.
Please do not ask my husband, "How is your wife?"
Comfort HIM.
Please do not say, "Has it already been three months?"
It feels like three years to me.
Please do not make less of my baby's life by saying, "You'll have more."
She was the one I wanted.
Please do not tell me, "Time will heal."
Time is a four-letter word.
Please do not say, "God knows best."
I am angry with God.
Please do not say, "She is in Heaven."
I want her here.
Please do not tell me how great your life is -
I am living a nightmare.
Please do not tell me about someone else's healthy new baby -
It's like a knife through my flat, empty belly.
Please do not say, "You look as if you were never pregnant!"
I WANT to look pregnant. I want to BE pregnant.
Please do not keep silent and not mention her name -
She was real - do you not think so?
Please do not ask, "What do you need?"
I need my baby.
Please do not say, "If there is anything I can do..."
Please just do it. I can't ask.
Please do not ask if I am better now -
You know that I am not.