Dear God,

I try to move on the the future, and forget about my past,
I don't' wanna waste my life away so fast,
you say i have a heart so strong,
so everything i have done wasn't all wrong?

I have made my mistakes,
So I try to forget about the pointless heartaches,
I wipe away my sad tears,
and fight against my worst fears.

I only have one life, I wanna make it the greatest,
Not have regrets and make it my saddest.

I like to make friends,
but I have to be careful because even those relationships can have there messed up bends,
I try not to fall in love because it tears me apart,
I need top be gentle with my only heart.

I live my life each day,
and I try to live it your way,
I will always run into a kink here and there,
Cause for goodness sake there everywhere.

So today i pray,
That you will help me not waste my life away,
that i can be the person you created,
and I'm sorry Lord for how long i have waited,
I will fight for what's right,
and I know everything I will need is in plain sight.

Please lead me in the right direction, so I can finally make a correction,
I pray for the day i have earned back all that I have lost,
from this terrible path i have crossed,
I want them to know that i am trying,
and that's why I stay up all night crying,
I don't cry because i want all the attention on me,
I cry because all this hate in me needs to be set free.

I am afraid I'm loosing my Dad,
I know I made him pretty mad..
It hurts me to know that I am the reason for my mom being sad,
I want them to know that I am sorry for real,
I would give anything for them to know that, that's how i feel.

So Lord, one again, i pray
that you'll help me every step of the way,
so here i ask, for forgiveness at last,
and to let go of this terrible past,
help me become the girl i wanna be,
and no longer have this hatred that's inside of me.

I need you God every step of the way,
For You are all I need each day.

In your name,
Amen.