In The End

In the end
it came to this
fate or choice
who knows

hope lost
motivation gone
emotions killed
mind was messed

permanent solution
for temporary problem?
no, the problem
was permanent too

phoenix to ashes
never reborn
depressing poem?
it's just farewell

cared once
tried to help
but made it worse
more pain came

secluded myself
became a recluse
didnt help
thought too much

not due to stress
nor due to the past
im just an idiot
an unfixable person

no understanding
never will be
even explaining
wont help

assumptions caused
will be wrong
im sure of that
the truth is false

goodbye friends
im sorry
i have to be selfish
cant live this way

in the end
it doesnt matter
not a thing
sorry and goodbye