When jesus saved me!

The smoking
the drinking
became my way of living.
all because an imperfect human being,
who stopped loving me.

i woke up in the morning
dreading
the thought of living.
went to sleep at night thinking
suicide will take away the crying.

i walked into the cold sea
and as the waves engulfed me
i felt life sipping away from my body...
it was peaceful.
my eyes were closed but i saw a light so bright.
i heard my named called
and when i saw him i knew it was Jesus.

i turned away from his sad eyes in shame knowing i caused his heart to bleed.
but he held my face up and looked into my eyes and talked to me.
not in words but i understood what he said...

my child i love you and always will no matter what.
in times of difficulty when life seems worthless open your heart in prayers to me and your father in heaven and your spirits will be comforted.i promise.
it is not you time to leave this sinful earth, so i breath back into you the gift of life i gave you at your beginning.

i hugged him close and cried a joyful cry.
when i opened my eyes i was lying on the warm sand with concerned eyes starring at me.
i smiled and they must have thought i was not feeling well.
but i felt a joy so immense
all because of my loving Jesus.

from that day on,
i encountered many hard times and sometimes i felt like giving up
but each time i kneel and pray
Jesus filled my heart with warmth and all these problems seemed like nothing than not having god in my life

god i love you.thank you for saving me.