How did I miss that?

Not even the clouds showed it,
like the sun rising in the morning and as it settles.
The world spine
as my blood boils
I have a new thermometer record,
a faint breath
a blurred sight.
The universe is at the end to me,
the sky is clear
I see no signs of clouds
Another drought.
Emptiness.
Drowning in my own feelings.
How could I have tell
that such time will come.
To get me at my peak only to
drop me down to my grave.
How did I miss that?
No I didnt miss it
I ignored it to pave way for my feelings,
a weapon of its own city.