Owen, how sorry I am

-----I'm sorry I did sleep with Ehman this time around,
idk what I was thinking Owen, or why I Let u down,
the first time it was what it was and nothing more.
I kissed him and showed him the door,
and December came and went with Dan,
and still in the end I was ur biggest and only fan...
now July haunts me like a ghost,
I made a mistake and drifted out to coast,
I hurt u do badly, and
I don't know why bc I only love u so madly,
I need u baby I swear in my heart,
Your the only one that sets me and the world apart...
I made a big mistake I will admit it now,
And made myself out to not understand HOW,
I love u Owen and don't throw us away,
You will stay inside my heart each and everyday,
I'll beg u on bended knees
and ask u please please please...
forgive me baby, it wasn't what it seemed.
You are the only man who completes my dreams! � 
I am sorry I couldn't tell u for abt a month,
In ur eyes I know I look like a c!*t
but I didn't want to hurt u, I didn't wanna see it through,
I couldn't bear to lose you,
Yet here we are, possibly never saying our I do's....
I f!-*ed up quite a few times,
and now I've messed up to the point where I rhyme,
I love you baby, u drive me crazy,
and I'll never forgive myself, but if u could maybe,
just look into Ur heart and not put me back onto the shelf.
I made a mistake by cheating on u,
and I'll never EVER forgive myself or be protective over u.
It was one sexual time,
it wasn't that kind,
It drove Me out of my mind,
Not in pleasure, but only in pain,
and now I see I had nothing to GAIN...
I lost my closest dearest friend,
my love my Bebe to The very end.
I know the road we traveled wasn't easy,
sometimes the motion sickness made us both queasy,
but I am not perfect I can only admit,
I didn't wanna tell u any of it for a month
bc I knew ud call it quits.
This is breaking my heart, tearing me apart,
I can't sleep, can't eat and I'll prolly never mend,
without YOU MY love, I don't KNOW where to begin.
Sometimes the "time u took" made me act out, scream and yell and sometimes text a shout!
I didn't mean anything I ever did to u,
and most the time it always made me more blue.
Owen I Love u so damn much,
take a look at the hand I made for u,
And please don't crinkle it and crunch!
Those memories are ours that we shared,
And each and everyone I can't seem to bear...
that they all May be closing to a end,
And nothing i can do can bring them back again,
I f!#ked up and screwed another dude,
someone who meant nothing to me,
not like the way I feel for u.
The way u make me smile with a show of ur hands,
the way we have struggled and pulled thru and
learned how to "dance"....
The way I have fallen for u so Many times,
The way I am again learning how to rhyme...
I made such a huge mistake and only once it took,
most the time in life it hasn't been a opened book,
I lied I deceived I made myself out to be,
A person I wanted You to see,
I wasn't right,
and it's been keeping me UP all night,
I can't dream
And I can't rest,
most the time I'd rather take a bullet to the chest!
We have been thru hell you and I,
and without u Bebe I just may curl up and die,
I'm Going to publish this for all the world to See! I don't care who sees it and criticizes me....
what we had and have is real and nothing can compare,
and no man on this earth will ever dare...
to try to take what's rightfully yours,
I won't kiss I won't f!!k I'll show his butt to a strangers door!
I love u Owen and as much as u wanna believe,
I'm Not perfect nor anything but human,
and I do Make mistakes and DECIEVE.
I do love u tho and truly truly care,
And deep down I want u to be aware,
that the roads may be shakey
and the seas may split in two,
but baby, I have NOTHING but respect and love for u.....
I regret first kiss with that shmuck,
And the second time when we ended up with a f!*k
but if ud ever give me another chance,
Id learn and love to complete our dance,
there's so many steps still untaken and
without u I am forsaken.
I can't live without u, and what u do and how u make me feel, without you my life isn't real,
I'll tell the world what a fool I have been,
I'll write it out and sign my name in pen.
Shauna mosher is a Ridiculous fool,
She lies and cheats and breaks all her own rules,
she acts out of spite and vindictiveness,
All to hurt someone for a pitiful kiss.
Owen Taylor is a knight indeed,
kind and sweet and charming to a T,
He is the most amazing man alive,
and the way I hurt him yes yes I should die!
There's no one that compares to this guy,
he makes ur heart soar and helps spread ur wings to fly,
on top Of it all as if he could get any better,
he Is amazing in the sack, no one can compare,
The way he does everything intact!
This man is prince charming he is!
Wowing u away with a simple kiss!
Under the stars and set to a old theme,
he is far far from A scheme!
I would die for this man, it is true,
I'd beat the people who hurt him
till they are black And blue!
And did I mention I may wanna start with me?!
Here i go! A swift kick to my Own wee wee!
A toothless !ss like me doesn't deserve ,
this man who Is covered in fur!
And yes yes I LOVE that too!
And anyone else who doesn't F U!
He's real and a man that's trusted and true,
so AMAZIng and wonderful too!
I need him In my life so dear,
that I may of ruined everything we held So near!
If at all Owen u can forgive me, u will see,
A person who won't disagree,
A person who gives u ur space,
A person who doesn't TRY to Win the race,
You will see a woman who is changed,
A woman who has learned the error or her ways,
and made a mistake now and again ,
with a few pitiful puny tiny weinered men!
I am So sorry words cannot express,
and the things I�  Am and feel can't make me
Out to be less!
I miss u now and always so Very much,
I yearn And long for ur touch!
Please forgive me and take my words sincere!
I Will mean every rhyming one for years and years and years!
U are the sun in my sky and the moon I see at night,
the world has turned dark
And I am in fright!
Again so the world can see what a cunt I've truly been,
I'll publish this tonite and
send it to the men,
for the lips I kissed was a great mistake,
and the moments I had with them I regret so badly
JUST go drown me in a lake!
Owen taylor bush is the most amazing man !
I am nothing but a w!*re bag!
Please forgive me Owen bush!
I'm starting to turn to straight MUSH!
I love u baby so very much,
believe in me believe in us,
believe in the paper that has my touch!
Each and every memory, I miss so Dearly,
and I cant suffer to think abt truly losing u, for these other a!*es I'll jus hand my gun to u, shoot me right between the eyes, execution me until I die!
I'll do anything for u back again,
even turn the gun on a few men!
Baby please, remember me.
The me I know u can still see.
Owen Taylor I love u with all my heart,
and never ever will do anything to
Hurt us, harm us or tear us apart!
Here I go To publish this,
may I suffer to the worlds hiss!
Bring it on I dont care,
Owen Taylor bush is all that can leave me in despair.....
.......I love u!

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