Where is the light?

Where is the light?
Not sure how much longer this can go on or
How much longer I can stand this fight.

Days, weeks, months go by,
I'm in this state
I often question, why?

What have I done to deserve all this pain?
Nothing more to lose,
no hope for any gain.

Tears run down my face with every thought in my head,
Where can I turn to for comfort?
Not even my own bed.

I often wish I could just fall asleep forever,
not wake up,
not tomorrow, not ever.

Those around me keep telling me there's light,
But what would they know?
They're not experiencing the fight.