Believe in.

I would love to believe what my friends and family believe.
That I am strong.
That I am beautiful.
That I can go through anything.
That my heart is tough. That it will still stand no matter what the world decides to throw at it.

Truth is I've gone through many battles and have lost so much.
And have won so little.
Through it all i have disappeared.
Now my body moves on it's own.
I just watched myself walk away.
I just disappeared and I really didn't care.

Now i wish I could see through their eyes just for a second.
Why do they see all of these things.
Where does all this faith come from?
All that belief in me?
And the care and love for me
.
So I can finally believe in myself that I can really do anything.
That I can actually once again have sum thing to believe.
This is all what I really want.
To wake up every morning and look into my eyes and finally see me.