Time to Give Up..

I don't know what to say, think, or feel.
I thought what we felt was real.
Now I'm confused and lost.
A lesson will have been taught.
Of analysing all aspects, suspects & victims.
You continuosly fill me with your venom.
I'm not sure what to do right now.
Maybe I'll just die right now.
Feeling so low and so hurt.
Even death wouldn't work.
I'd still feel that black hole where my heart should be.
Still hear silence instead of you calling out to me.
Still feel that emptiness in my soul where your spirit should be.
Who am I kidding?
I could never be enough.
You're just dragging me along, I'm calling your bluff.
You didn't mean a word you said.
Once again I'm the fool and she gets the last laugh.
How sad?
It's too bad.
I loved you then, now, & always will.
For just one more shot, I'd kill.
But why?
Why do I carry on and participate in your games?
You'll never love me truthfully, what a shame.
Time for me to face reality and see. . .
You'll never be with me.