Painfull past....

Behind those laughters...
tears are shed..
behind those smiles.....
pain are being kept..
how to ease..
i don'know..

so many years had past...
but the pain is still in my heart....
i wonder why?...
i wonder how?...
moving on to these heartache of mine..

people say...i have to give it up..
but how can i..if i still love him that much...
will i wait forever?...
will i've hurt forever...
or just simply..leave it to that...