Slowly breaking

Slowly breaking apart and fading into nothing
There's nothing left to give
It's been ripped out and stomped all over before
It's nothing new to me
This was a first and it will be the last time for me
No matter what I want it doesn't matter
No matter what I do it will never be good enough
I will never be good enough......
I can't handle it anymore
This false sense of security
False sense of happiness
And feeling like I might have a place
This loneliness has finally beaten me
And Made me vulnerable
Left me open to the lies
My walls finally crumbled and my defenses came crashing down
But in the end it was all pointless
And just left me looking like a fool....
I know I don't matter
I can see through your eyes
You will never look at me the way I look at you
It is painfully obvious now