If i end it. i would have never had the chance to finish my hell. Yet is that a good or bad thing?. i dont beleave ill make to see how it ends. i beleave illbe done befor this nightmare ends. we shall know soon if i can suffer on through this unthinkable toture. U shall get one last word from me befor my mind is made. I wish not to hurt others. yet the more i breath, i take ur air, i waste ur space. I am nothing but an empty figure. If I leave, i cant be blamed, hit, nor beaten any more. i have plenty to feel shame for. I have hurt those who i wish not to. I pray u forgive me as i commit my final surender. U all shall not feel pain at my fault no more. ive done no good in ur lifes. Ive only broguht pain and agony. So u all may feel free from what ive done. I just hope u can find it to forgive me. If not, u may find comfort that im burning with my maker in the deepest fires of hell. U may want to see me bleed more. But i have spilt all my blood. I apologize that i couldnt last long enough for u to be satisfied with my suffering. Yet just think where i am. To me it is safer then the earth u all walk. But yet again i shall apologize. I can now see why ive survived this long. It is for those who wish to see me bleed, me fall, my soul i wish i could feel once more die. Ive fallen to far, to hard, for to long. I have survived this far. Im to weak to take anymore pain and missory. I wish to help u all, yet im not certain how much help i can be much longer. I wish to set u free from my harm and all the misory ive caused u. I now see theres only one way for that to be
