Homesick

In this game of life
The light in me wins
Me & god was close
Closer than saimese twins

But we weren't always the closest
So note this
Lions are so ferocious
The way I lived was so atrocious
Emptiness was my diagnosis
We were so bad
We wanted trouble to approach us

And that was when I started to see
Friends departed from me
And that put a spark in me
The lord wanted to talk to me
But it was real dark to see
So I continued just to walk the streets
sometimes at the park with weed
As people laughed and talked with me
I still felt the empty part in me

So I try to start filling it up with things
I used to chill at the wall
So then I started playing in this game
I used to act silly on the trains
My friend died from shots
So then my heart was filling up with pain
But that didnt cause me to change
I was so hurt
That I started causing the pain
Feeling like im lost in the rain
I thought I would never be saved
Then I started tourching in flames

I wanted to get out this earth
and almost every word that came out my mouth was a curse
I was always treating women like objects
But in my neighborhood
Whenever I was sinning it was progress

Then I got my heart broken
jesus was knocking for so long
Finally my heart opened
Right before I started choking
I started hoping
I could hear God's voice
And finally the lord spoken

Hendrickson you must di this
Read my word
Cuz everything in this world is just foolish
So I started to seek the word
I was surprised I sat back at my seat at first
then I started to read the verse
Cuz I was the last person
that you would see in church
Jesus started to sieze the the thirst
And now only with god
I finally found peace on this earth