How can someone feel pain and love at the same time?
How can one feel love and hate at the same time?
How can one have so much love from one that it causes you to hate?
For Me! I believe it's the trap that love puts you in!
People say love is the best thing that can happen to you, but I honestly feel there is nothing worse! How can love be a good thing? Happiness? Wrong! For me love has caused pain and hardship, stress and misery, love has caused me worry and regret, and most of all love has caused HATE! Hate for those who claimed to love me most !
But Amazingly, every time hate takes over, I feel more love!
I can't explain it and don't understand.
I feel the love, but I feel hate.
I feel happy, but I feel sad.
I had someone tell me I am confusing and don't make any sense and they were right.
How can I tell them when I can't figure it out myself?
I hate to make plans and I suck at commitments.
I don't want to be alone, but I don't want to be in love.
I don't want to live, but I don't want to die.
I don't want to hate and I don't like to lie!
I just want to live one day at a time with no plans for the future, so I don't have to fail!
I just want to be me, how I am mean't to be ~
HAPPY AND FREE !
I want to free myself from the hate and pain, but to do that I have to stop caring!
Once I stop caring my heart will be useless,
and without a useful heart, my life will be pointless !
