Broken

You say that you love me then we fall back into this same routine,You act so secretive distant and mean.
Tell me why do you act this way ,then when im ready to leave you beg me to stay.
Am i really to be played as a fool for the rest of my life, neglected and mentally abused by the one i was soon to call my wife.
Is all this hurt really necessary, from the one i am supposed to marry?
Tell me why i am so deserving of this, i do not know when i go that you will be missed.