It would be like this on this day
All messed up and not expected
I didn't think I would cry
I'm stronger than that
But I guess I'm really not
Nothing but pain fills my body
A breaking soul
Shattering and cracking every second
I don't think I'll be able to get through the day
This is just too hard
To pretend I'm happy
When in reality....
I'm just a mess
Nothing will be able to bring me up
I can't do this
The pain is just too much for me
It's just too unbearable for me
I just want to cry until I fall asleep
I wanna be under my warm covers
I need to soak my pillow again
I just feel so broken; so betrayed
It plays through my head over and over again
Like a movie I don't want to see
Like my own nightmare
It's just all crap
The roses, the bears, the hugs...
The kisses I know i won't get
I got all dressed up
Hoping I could handle the pain
The pain I know will come
I just should have known better
Now I'm just scared
Scared that maybe he'll give my gift away
What am I gonna do now?
I have a teddy bear with his name
And I have a heart that is just broken
Is it worth the pain?
Should I give it to him?
I'm just as confused as the next
Does he really love me?
